10.07.09
My journal entry today simply reads, "I am much stronger than I thought I was." This is a heavy statement. I have spent many nights, tearfully praying for the strength to make it through another day. This morning, I realized I have. I have endured the biggest heartbreak of my life. I have endured losing my home, and everybody on his side that has been my family for the past six and a half years. I have endured a couple of weeks of living on my own, and am doing okay.
Losing his family is probably the hardest thing next to losing him. I love his brothers, and his father. I have watched the younger ones turn from little boys into men. I have spent many hours joyfully spending time with them. I considered them not only my family, but also my friends. I have spent many days mourning the loss of his family.
Although I still have hard days and I still feel lonely, and although I do not miss him any longer, I do mourn the loss of the life I had built for myself the last seven years. However, some days are not so hard. I wouldn't consider them good, but not bad is a dramatic improvement.
My journal entry today simply reads, "I am much stronger than I thought I was." This is a heavy statement. I have spent many nights, tearfully praying for the strength to make it through another day. This morning, I realized I have. I have endured the biggest heartbreak of my life. I have endured losing my home, and everybody on his side that has been my family for the past six and a half years. I have endured a couple of weeks of living on my own, and am doing okay.
Losing his family is probably the hardest thing next to losing him. I love his brothers, and his father. I have watched the younger ones turn from little boys into men. I have spent many hours joyfully spending time with them. I considered them not only my family, but also my friends. I have spent many days mourning the loss of his family.
Although I still have hard days and I still feel lonely, and although I do not miss him any longer, I do mourn the loss of the life I had built for myself the last seven years. However, some days are not so hard. I wouldn't consider them good, but not bad is a dramatic improvement.
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