12.19.09
My brother and sister are coming to stay with me over Christmas. This is welcome, as this is going to be the single hardest time of the "first year" everybody talks about. My brother was supposed to be here today, but due to a major snow storm, he won't be in until Monday.
It's been really hard to get into Christmas this year. I didn't shop until the last minute, I'm not even finished. I had to force myself to decorate. I didn't want to because I knew it would hurt - it's something we used to do together every year. I finally did get decorations up, but I did it with tear filled eyes. I feel the full weight of being alone, despite great friends and family coming to stay.
My brother and sister are coming to stay with me over Christmas. This is welcome, as this is going to be the single hardest time of the "first year" everybody talks about. My brother was supposed to be here today, but due to a major snow storm, he won't be in until Monday.
It's been really hard to get into Christmas this year. I didn't shop until the last minute, I'm not even finished. I had to force myself to decorate. I didn't want to because I knew it would hurt - it's something we used to do together every year. I finally did get decorations up, but I did it with tear filled eyes. I feel the full weight of being alone, despite great friends and family coming to stay.
My finally decorated house
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